I am Sam, Sam I am

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I am Sam, Sam I am.

 

No, I’m not losing my mind.

It happened to me a few years ago.

And struggling without it in the world, I recognize,

It is a battle that never terminates.

 

There’s no beginning and no end to it,

Just me in my writing jail, expecting my Muse,

To generate back my writing urge.

 

And who are You to judge me for being incarcerated?

 

Your writing has nothing to do with mine,

And who is affording you the right to be my advisor and prosecutor?

At the same time you’re not practicing it quite correctly,

By giving your writings to the universe as it is,

The wrong, the immoral and not rephrased as well.

 

So, go away and leave me alone,

My conclusions and my fiction are entirely my own.

 

With nothing to give and all to take,

You probably have just plain misery when you wake up.

 

Pick out a path, don’t get me amiss,

Stay in the herd or leave me alone.

 

Lastly, I’ll kickoff with my brain clear.

My head is on the call, awaiting a launch into writer’s sphere.

 

Because there’s no one to understand this jail of mine,

I don’t have to pretend like others do,

My own statements split down the rampart,

While you sit and wait

The words to come forth on their own.

 

So be it, like it is implied to be.

That means to be free or watch the messy crowd.

 

The rumor of the herd is breaking me down.

Well herd,

I’d rather be Myself then be like You.

 

I’m not giving anyone my writing soul, and remember, I will never ever follow You.

 

I am Sam,

And later, when I finally walk out of this jail of mine,

I grant you the permission to scratch on my gravestone, over and over, repeatedly :

 

“But Sam was never the same again”.

 

 

 

 

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15 thoughts on “I am Sam, Sam I am

  1. jannatwrites June 25, 2014 / 4:17 AM

    It does feel like writing jail when the words don’t flow.

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  2. tnkerr June 25, 2014 / 4:56 AM

    Ahhh – you been reading my mind!

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    • Tina The Mess June 25, 2014 / 9:57 AM

      Oh thanks!

      That’s a coincidence, isn’t it?

      Thanks for your comment! 🙂

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  3. Blake June 25, 2014 / 9:40 PM

    “My own statements split down the rampart” – an excellent phrase!

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    • Tina The Mess June 25, 2014 / 9:48 PM

      Hi Blake…

      Thanks for commenting and complimenting!

      I really appreciate it! 😀

      Tina.

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  4. Jen June 26, 2014 / 10:03 AM

    I’ve been stuck there lately myself. I hope Sam find the way out. 🙂

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    • Tina The Mess June 26, 2014 / 11:16 AM

      Oh, the same problem here. 🙂

      But it’s mostly connected to my mental state (I have BPD), so there are phases of up’s and downs, which reflects on the writing as well.

      I have hope for Sam, I wish you the same and I hope that I will also climb out of the “writer’s block” abyss.

      😀

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  5. Suzanne June 26, 2014 / 6:22 PM

    “I’m not giving anyone my writing soul” – love that line! Great take on the prompts! 🙂

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    • Tina The Mess June 26, 2014 / 7:16 PM

      Thank you Suzanne!

      I really appreciate your comment. 🙂

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  6. innatejames June 26, 2014 / 6:40 PM

    Your rhyme and off rhyme scheme makes reading this herky jerky, like an improvised dance. And when the poem addressed “the herd” I gave it a round of applause in my brain. Nicely done!

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    • Tina The Mess June 26, 2014 / 7:19 PM

      I have to write LOL now. 🙂

      Yes, it’s a herky-jerky, but it’s my state of the mind at the moment. 😀

      Glad you liked the herd. The poem,or wannabe-poem, is about the heard. That’s the main point.

      😀 Thanks for your comment, I had a laugh, really! 🙂

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      • innatejames June 26, 2014 / 8:28 PM

        I’m not sure it came across, but I meant herky-jerky in a good way. Like every line in the poem was unexpected and landing on an off rhyme in the middle of the line made me feel like I was on an Easter egg hunt while I was reading it.

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        • Tina The Mess June 26, 2014 / 9:39 PM

          LOL! And again,LOL!

          Alice in the Wonderland feeling? 😀

          And I knew a herky-jerky was in a …good way. 😀

          Anyway, I’m glad to see your response, even reading “The Sam” was a rollercoaster ride to you. 😀

          Tina.

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  7. ranu802 June 26, 2014 / 9:10 PM

    I enjoyed reading your lovely poem.

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    • Tina The Mess June 26, 2014 / 9:40 PM

      Thank you Ranu!

      I didn’t quite expected the word lovely, as it is a bit harsh, jumpy, like a ride on a bumpy road. 😀

      But I’m glad you like it. 😀

      Tina.

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