Surprise, surprise!



The second year of my work as a nurse in the ICU (Intensive Care Unit) was exhausting me to the point I was able to fall asleep standing.
The shifts were terrible and the job was overwhelming.

Only two years of the job took me to the edge of my physical and mental capabilities. When I was waking up, I generally had no idea if I was in the hospital taking a nap or at home. The color of the walls assured me, I was in my own bed.
Confusion was not a proper word of my state of mind.

Then, strange things started to happen.
My boyfriend and I were at some boring wedding, and I remember my yawning.

Drinking the glass of the red wine, I took my cell phone and started to evaluate my plans for the next week, and grocery shopping list. So, I opened the application “My period”.

As I opened the app, a red light appeared and the message big as a Titanic, followed: “Your cycle is 20 days late!” I was entering all the dates carefully, without skipping anything. I stopped breathing for a moment.

I called a waiter. “Please, can I have another glass of red wine? No, bring me two glasses!”
My boyfriend gave me a look like I was nuts.
I counted the days for myself. Again, again and again.
Twenty days, just as the app said.

I drank the both glasses to the bottom, and convinced myself I had a hormonal problem due to stress, job and unhealthy living style.

“I’ll go to see a doc next week”, I promised myself, and forgot about it.

In the next following weeks, I started eating cucumbers for breakfast. I needed them, more than coffee. After all, they are healthier than coffee, I thought.

When I was coming from a job, my goal was to get to the nearest sofa or a bed. I fell asleep immediately, wearing the coat.

Back then I concluded that I surely had pneumonia, but, all my health examinations were normal.

My boyfriend reactions were merely “Meh, it’s nothing!” when I complained. And he was a M.D. But he had a cold head and no empathy at all. I wished to break him with a hammer, for his incapability of concern.

Then, I woke up in the middle of the night.

I had pain in my tummy, so hard I thought I was dying. I tried to wake the Cold One, but he just turned around and continued snoring.

I literally dragged myself to the bathroom, where I have spent the next six hours, lying on the floor, unable to move.
My cell phone was in the dining room, but it could be in the South Pacific Sea, as well. I couldn’t make it so far.

The next morning, as the Cold One found me on the floor and took me to the ER, the nurse said to me: “Congratulations! You’re almost 12 weeks pregnant!”
I felt dizzy. Pregnant? The cucumbers, the constant tiredness. It all made sense suddenly.

And my boyfriend, the Cold One, nodded his head uninterested and said: “Meh, we’ll manage it, somehow”.

We broke up the next day. I had enough “Meh’s” for the next two lives.

The phrase, “Meh, it’s nothing”, and my confusion, turned into the biggest surprise in my life. And the most precious.

30 thoughts on “Surprise, surprise!

  1. C.C. June 19, 2014 / 2:19 AM

    Glad to see someone else got the ‘unplanned pregnancy’ memo for this week’s Yeah Write grid 🙂 Seriously love this…”I wished to break him with a hammer, for his incapability of concern” and the pet name you gave him, “The Cold One”—perfection. Glad it all worked out to be the most precious surprise of your life. Me too 🙂


    • Tina The Mess June 19, 2014 / 4:34 AM

      LOL! Yes, it seems like a theme of the grid!
      Unplanned is the best thing, if you get into planning, you’ll never have enough time / money / just name it.

      I love your post too! 😀


  2. April C. June 19, 2014 / 3:32 AM

    Awww! Meh! I’m glad you broke up with The Cold One though. If his reaction was so bland then meh at him.


    • Tina The Mess June 19, 2014 / 4:38 AM

      Hi April!

      Oh, how did I meh-meh him! For good!

      And now I see it was the best decision ever! 😀

      Btw it was 10 years ago. 😀

      So my precious and my surprise is 10 years old already 😀

      Thanks for the comment! I like it! Meh! 😀

      Liked by 1 person

      • April C. June 19, 2014 / 7:02 PM

        Awww! That is awesome x a million! Meh!

        I feel like a bird now. Meh meh meh! The apathetic Road Runner, maybe.

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        • Tina The Mess June 19, 2014 / 7:15 PM

          Aww! Thanks a lot for compliments. 😀

          But why apathetic? And the Road Runner always seemed to me as a very happy birdie 😀

          And smart as well. 😀


          • April C. June 19, 2014 / 8:02 PM


            Hmm, happy and smart. I guess you’d have to be to avoid all those anvils from Acme Co.!


            • Tina The Mess June 19, 2014 / 8:05 PM


              The Coyote didn’t stand a chance even with the Acme Co. stuff!

              You really made me laugh! 😀


              • April C. June 20, 2014 / 2:43 PM

                Oh my goodness. I looked for an appropriate picture to reply with and, thanks to Google, I’m wondering what kind of trust fund kid that Coyote is that he can afford all that stuff from Acme!

                Unless his parents OWNED Acme.

                His name was Coyote Acme! A-ha!!


              • April C. June 20, 2014 / 2:44 PM

                Pardon. Wile E. Coyote Acme.

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                • Tina The Mess June 20, 2014 / 3:18 PM

                  I haven’t got a clue about it!

                  Google is really a place to find anything…LOL!


  3. raroto June 19, 2014 / 8:29 AM

    A perfect Meh Moment this! I was going Yay at “I had enough mehs for the next two lives”! You go, Girl!! Good to know everything worked out well for you and your precious, Tina. Meh… 😉

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    • Tina The Mess June 19, 2014 / 9:15 AM

      LOL! I see how that Meh is going to haunt me on this blog forever! 😀
      But, it was the true, the Meh’s all around. Meh this, meh that. Fuck that! 😀
      I should have known better and sooner, but then my precious wouldn’t be around. 😀

      Thanks for the support and a good laugh you always bring me. Meh to you too! 😀


  4. Sam Merel June 19, 2014 / 3:53 PM

    I love that you named him “The Cold One.” This was a really great story.

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    • Tina The Mess June 19, 2014 / 3:58 PM

      Thank you!

      I really named him like that, and the story is real. 😀

      At first, it wasn’t a great story, but hey, we all laugh at the things from our past.

      At least I do. 😀


    • Tina The Mess June 19, 2014 / 4:22 PM

      Meh, too long! 😀

      But it doesn’t matter now.

      I was young and stupid, I admit it. 😀

      But everything turned just fine, great in fact!

      So, meh the past! 😀


  5. Natalie DeYoung June 19, 2014 / 8:27 PM

    Wow, that’s quite a reaction. “Meh.” Not a “meh” moment at all.

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    • Tina The Mess June 19, 2014 / 8:40 PM

      I agree, not a “meh” moment at all.

      I’m kidding about it now, I am being sarcastic, and I joke on my account.

      But back then it was a real trauma, which ended just ok. Great in fact!

      I am grateful for the “meh’s”. They have turned my life around, and led me in a different direction of that I have planned in my mind.

      Life is full of plots and unexpected turns.

      Now I understand that, and nothing can surprise me anymore.



  6. Jen June 19, 2014 / 8:55 PM

    Sounds like you made the right choice! And why were you on the bathroom floor?? That tired or in pain? Curious!


    • Tina The Mess June 19, 2014 / 9:08 PM

      I made the best choice in my life.

      Curiosity never hurt anyone. 😀

      I was in pains. I didn’t state in the post that it was a spontaneous threatened abortion.

      That’s why I was in pains, so hard, that even breathing hurt.

      I was hospitalized for two months, not allowed to get out of the bed, but the pregnancy ended ok.



  7. Laura P. Schulman, MD, MA June 20, 2014 / 12:41 AM

    Hah. “Meh” indeed. Mine is 29 years old. His father was, and still is, a creepy spineless slimy scumbag deadbeat. But I love my “little surprise,” so much for “meh.”


    • Tina The Mess June 20, 2014 / 7:47 AM


      “Meh”, haha….it’s important that we have our children, the most treasured thing our my lives.

      But your description of his father, as a “creepy spineless slimy scumbag deadbeat”, beats mine description, although I could use some of these terms also.

      Especially spineless. 😀 But “meh” that!

      Thanks for commenting, I really appreciate it. 😀


  8. sporterhall July 6, 2014 / 3:06 AM

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